Lost & Found

I’ve been in Arizona for 2-months so I thought I would post a progress report, per se. First and foremost, I don’t regret it. Granted, I’ve encountered my challenges, but that was anticipated!

I had lost a few things, so when I looked, they were found in Arizona …

The Grass is Greener Wherever You Put The Water

The Wilde Clan offered their Radio Room as a soft landing place for me until I could manifest and/or locate a more-suitable living situation. I’m in their debt until I upgrade to the Heaven above.

It was literally living with extended family who loved me dearly. Every minute there I felt welcomed, as well as a contributing, and positive member of the household. I knew I had lost my smile, and overall happiness in Washington, but I didn’t know I would find them in Arizona.

My Morning View

The Phoenix area experiences at least 300 days of sunshine, if not more. The picture above was my view from my bed every morning. Reminded me of the Pacific Northwest with the lush green trees juxtaposed to the rock, pebbles of the backyard, and concrete wall.

Being half Filipino, or more appropriately, Tisoy, my mind, body, and soul rejuvenates in the sunshine because ultimately I am a child of the sun.

[Tisoy is a Filipino term arising from the fusion of two words: mestizo (signifying members of the Hispano-Filipino or mixed breed society] and Pinoy, signifying the identity of the post-modern Filipino]

I just didn’t realize how much of an impact it DOES HAVE on me! I’ve definitely quipped the grass isn’t greener on the other side of the fence … it’s wherever you put the water.

That happened to be in Arizona, for me.

Something Old, Something New, Something Borrowed, Something Blue

Yes. Yes, I really did quote a wedding rhyme. In essence, I did enter into a marriage after a seemingly-quick courtship with the potential of moving to Arizona. To be transparent, moving to another state had been on my mind even before my most recent relationship.

My close orbit of friends heard me lament that my next partner most likely wasn’t gonna be found in Washington. I just didn’t see it happening even with the most concentrated manifesting.

As I traveled towards Arizona on the highways, and byways of America I wore old clothes, a newly created lei, a “borrowed” stuffed Gila Monster named Gil, and lastly, a blue heart.

I checked all the boxes, yeah?

Something Old – in the rhyme / superstition, it was meant to be protection for her eventual baby. Well, for me, my old clothes were protection for my eventual transition to new attire for the Arizona living.

Something New – there’s no source for this, but for me, the lei was a gift from my work crew to wish me well on my adventure there (here), and continued success.

Something Borrowed – in the rhyme, it was intended to wear something another happy bride wore. I stated it was “borrowed” but it’s actually my gifted stuffy to take on all my adventures in Arizona, and beyond. So far Gil’s presence has garnered a ton of attention, and comments especially on the cruise.

Something Blue – it’s intended to baffle the evil eye, by wearing a blue garter under a white dress. My definition is more metaphoric with a blue heart (sad)

Self Care For Me – Sunshine and Solitude

Found It!

This is a geocacher’s favorite announcement: FOUND IT! Or at least, mine … I also found more smiling, more laughing, and more inner peace that I lost years ago. I realize that might be difficult for some of my friends, and family to read.

My intention is not to hurt, but to reassure y’all, that I am happy. If you truly love someone or something you only want the best for them, and whatever it is that makes them happy regardless if it’s you that provides that or not.

I do truly miss my friends, family, and my home of 47 years. I really do. However, there are some “birds that can’t be caged”. If you know me, then you know in your heart-of-hearts that I’m one of those birds.

Coffee & Music

Speaking of “found it”, I found a living situation that will be my home for at least 6-months. I text Mari that I manifested it, and that she could be proud of me. She prodded for more details other than my announcement that I did it.

I’ve been for less than a week but it feels like I’ve been here more than that. That said, it’s a different feel to it, like more of a college dormitory. The landlord lives with me as well as another, existing roommate.

We have different lifestyles so we rarely interact with each, but when we do it’s respectful, and fun. I chuckled as no one is here to tell me what to do which is refreshing. Yet, it’s unsettling because there’s no one here to tell me what to do …

If you know me, then you know I will find a way to keep digging through these unchartered lands, and of course, not get lost again along the way.

‘los; out

Published by losisthemost

"You only live once, but ... if you do it right, once is all you need" ~ I'm an active American-Filipino that has many skills I use to their best advantage.

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