I find myself in an unusual state: listless. Actually, it’s more accurate to state I’m rudderless in Seattle. After I completed the rehabilitation loan with the “upgrades” to my house in December 2020, I really haven’t had an all-encompassing task that provides direction to my decisions.
In 2021, I attempted to start a small business in a COVID-19 global climate, hoping that the social distancing, mask wearing, and vaccinations would pave the way for a geocaching based business. Caching With Carlos was so GRAND in my head.
I was wrong; very foolish.
Many of our fellow Americans don’t have the disposable income for such activities. They are in survival-mode, per se. In the end, it wasn’t an appropriate, “fuck around and find out” scenarios.
I didn’t even glance at my job for inspiration to be promoted, etc. I don’t wanna work in the first place, so spending more energy on it is senseless.
My Tabula Rasa Day Declaration(s) are somewhat helpful, but not enough to fulfill my mind. So what do I do? Remain rudderless in the sea of indecision or find a compass and map to navigate my way through murky waters?
The last two weeks of December 2021, I started to review my life. I knew I had a letter-to-myself to be opened in February 2022, which I anticipated to be disappointed in myself.
I was seeking out an overriding task and/or activity that would ultimately provide the direction. I combed over my likes, interests, and hobbies (in no particular order)
- Geocaching / Hiking / Biking / Kayaking
- HAM radio
I’ve already assigned a yearly focus on Geocaching for a couple of years. What I hadn’t done was a singular focus on dance …
Dance, Dance Revolution
I thought about what this year’s focus should be. I landed on dancing (see what I did there?) I joined the dance team West Coast Country Heat in 2020. As COVID-19 ravaged the land, there was only one parade last year: Carnation, WA.
2021 was much like 2020 in terms of parades, county fairs, events and large gatherings of humans – there were none. The thought was the close proximity of many humans would be “super-spreaders” of the disease.
Officials, leaders, and decision-makers seem to be loosening COVID-19 restrictions as we better understand the disease and the vaccine with it’s booster to combat it.
I am focused on elevating my dance skill level so I won’t be rudderless in Seattle. I’ll make every effort to attend all performances (intrastate or interstate) It might end up being an all-encompassing behavior, but at least it’ll provide direction to the compass that I have in my head.
Time will tell.