COVID-19 Movember

Movember started today. What is that you ask? Movember is dedicated to making a difference in the lives of all the men in your life. The month commitment to Movember takes on three serious issues facing men’s health – prostate cancer, testicular cancer, and mental health.

C’mon – these are our dads, brothers, uncles, husbands, and friends we’re talking about. The goals are

1. Grow your mustache for charity and raise some money for charity.
2. Walk or run a distance of 60 miles for each of the 60 men lost to suicide each hour.
3. Host an event to raise funds for charity.

Trying To Staying Positive But Negative of COVID-19

2020 has been rough to say the least. I will gladly usher in the new year! My mental fortitude has been tested all-year long, by now, 11 months into this … it’s starting to fray at the edges.

Every morning, I swing my legs out from bed, and place them on the worn out light blue colored, 26 year old carpet. I mentally sigh. I’m exhausted in every aspect of my life, and is visually represented by this carpet that frustrates me.

I struggle every day to find purpose in the world. So instead of trying to resolve such a ginormous task like that I seek out happiness. Until January 1, 2020 that had been a relatively easy, daily, task to stave off the darkness of depression.

However, with the cancellation of many events during the calendar, I’ve had a clearer vision of what my true priorities are in my life at this point. And it wasn’t pretty – still isn’t. My friends are either engaged, married, having children or other life resume line items. Then there’s me: I have my house.

I started a refinancing loan in May 2020 which has since converted to a rehabilitation loan and I’ve regretted it ever since. The past 6 months I’ve encountered some challenge with a contractor, or the relentless amount of paperwork that never ceases.

I digress.

Sorry about the online pity-party. Let’s focus on the #Movember. Men will real issues such as fighting off cancer or coping with mental illness. I should be grateful of my current status, but it’s tough to see that the grass is still green where I’m staying versus my mental image of greener grass on the horizon in someone else’s yard.

It’s November 1st, 2020. I’ll make every effort to stay positive, walk at least a mile or two every day in memory of the 60 men who commit suicide every hour! Fairly easy to do at my job, and with my life in general.

In fact, I walked 2.27 miles today while I was #Geocaching today with my sister. So instead of focusing on what I don’t have: a significant other, amazing career, a large social orbit, unbelievable retirement fund … I’ll look at what little I have, and be grateful for it.